And it's like, I could show you something else, I could be someone else, because I am someone else. You show up to that house and you hear your name from across the street and you walk over and you see them and you wish you had never come because you know nothing good will come from seeing these people but you're holding on to the past and you still think you'll wake up in flannel sheets hungover for 8:00am section with Drew standing above swigging from a 32oz King Cobra but you know secretly that Broadway is over and you'll never have those nights or days again and it's really true you're waking up on Tanglewood Lane with not a single important thing to do tomorrow besides go back on CraigsList and scroll for hours.
It wont be back you have to stop holding on because it's stumping you. That it's finished it's done and more than half of the people you spent your time with everyday you avoid on Claremont because they're not yours anymore.
How do you even begin to express the levels of nostalgic sadness that both of them have reprimanded you for.
Monday, May 6, 2013
The break hasn't ended yet. It's been another year but the only things that have changed is that I'm another year older and I'm typing on a new computer. The position is the same. I guess there's more insight but all in all this "break" that was mentioned earlier is basically still in effect. Or actually, it has changed because it doesn't even feel like a break anymore! It's starting to feel like an actual themed period of my life. My god damned early twenties started off great and now it's all flat lined.
Yeah duh I'm complaining. This is it. What's up Internet. Want to feel sad? Read my blog.
Posted by Natalie at 11:46 PM